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"Love is patient,
love is kind.
It does not boast,
it is not proud.
It is not rude,
it is not self-seeking,
it is not easliy angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.
Love does not delight in evil, but rejoices with the truth. It always protects,
always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
Love never fails."
1 Cor 13:4-8
"Ideal love is fostered only between two sincere, mature and independent people.
It is the inner struggle to polish these attributes that is the key. Real love is not two people clinging to each other; it can only be fostered between two strong people secure in their individuality."
-Ikeda Sensei, Wisdom of Words
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Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna runaway?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud That no one hears you screaming
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
With no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desparate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding"
i realised.. this song can b very meaningful..
:: dawn tan :: at 11:48 PM
my new hair..
k, this is a little pic of me in my hall.. with my new hair! :)
do i look like a jap doll? after today, the new hair saga will be over.
I don't think i want to talk so much about my hair already. hehe! :)
Thanks ppl!
:: dawn tan :: at 4:56 PM
will u.. or u won't?
today i was approached by an auntie as she needed to call her son to tell him that she forgot the house keys, but her hp was low-batt.
At that very moment, i was thinking, should i lend her my phone?
It sets me thinking,
are we all suspicious towards every other being's nature?
Will we act out of selflessness?
Do we consider with regards to gender too?
Two scenrios came into my mind as i questioned myself if i should lend her my phone.
Firstly,
if i don't lend her, the auntie may not be able to get home. Also, i'll seemed selfish.
Secondly,
if i lend it to her, she'll be able to get home. But, that question popped out... what if... what if she runs away with my phone?
A typical scenrio happening in every day of our lives.
How will u act if someone ask u for the usage of your phone?
Will u disregard the possibility of your phone being "stolen" by the person?
In the end,
I decided to lend the auntie my phone.
And, yes, she was able to get home..
I'm happy, because i think i've done a good deed at the expanse of that possibility. :)
:: dawn tan :: at 1:08 AM my new hair-do
i did my hair under $100! haha. okie, i went to this salon at bishan, went to cut, color, highlight and then a treatment for $80! Hmm, the price seemed reasonable. :) But i think i'll be heading back soon because the color is quite light. haha!
Dear thinks it looks cool.. haha. i need more opinions from u guys..
I'm still not used to my hair, i'm still shocked when i look into the mirror when i woke up this morning! hahar! :p
:: dawn tan :: at 9:54 AM NAME ANALYSIS FOR: PEIYI TAN
PEIYI:
You don't fair well under inharmonious conditions. You are very peace loving. You can get very upset when you are frustrated. You can be quite inventive and quite curious. You are relatively demonstrative in your affections. You enjoy being stroked verbally and physically. Your independence and freedom are important to you. You need to learn to give and receive love for love's sake. You have a need to be assured of affection.
TAN:
You are an overly sensitive person, often falling into a savior-martyr role. You are very skeptical and have more than your share of bad luck. You have much enthusiasm with a driving attitude toward achievement in life. You can handle details well. You have a methodical mind.
unexpectedly, it turned out to be quite true. U guys should try it!
http://miva.zodiacal.com/acro.mv
Oh, today i went to do something to my hair!
Totally amazing and unexpected too!
Shall not say much, caz seeing is believing!
Friends, u will get the shock of ur life when u see my hair!
Haha! :p
:: dawn tan :: at 11:50 PM irritated...
i have some spots on my left side of my neck. i think some bug bit me. And, i'm feeling so irritated because it is itchy and i feel disfigured! urgh!
:: dawn tan :: at 1:20 PM business finance is cool!
A very interesting subject to learn and understand!
Money, money and more money.....
and,
bankruptcy!
:: dawn tan :: at 11:54 AM mental constipation
i'm always having thoughts and then talk about them. but i never put them into action.
What does that say about me?
A total mental constipation piece of wood?!
other girls make an effort to surprise their bf on special days, but me? Am i just plain lazy that i don't bother or.. i'm just a piece of something having mental constipation?
In fact, i think i am leading an aimless life. i have no aims. Even if i have, i don't seem to take the extra mile to make that "aim" into action. What is wrong with me? I guess the true self in me is that - nothing special/worthy to talk about.
life is, nothing, but to meet many expectations of others.
:: dawn tan :: at 1:55 PM
time to face the reality~
I'm back in hall! And every tues and fri, i'll have 3.5 hrs of classes in the morning! It's time to face the reality. Every week, my days will be occupied by road relay trainings, canoe polo trainings and then, GE classes! Can't wait to attend tmr's class - Business Finance... i wonder what will it be about. hahar, didnt bother to check out with the others! hehe.
Up till now, i have yet cut and color my hair. I'm having a low-budget week! hehe. Wonder how i'll survive. hmmm.. hope no big events will come up!
Well, moments ago, when i was in the bus, i was pondering,
how much does it take for one to express his/her feelings truely and freely? Why is it that, sometimes, it takes quite a bit of courage to reveal a deep-rooted secret that is only known to urself? I guess, most of us have the tendency to hide certain issues to protect oneself's character. So, to how true is that? hmmm....
:: dawn tan :: at 1:57 AM dear's back! :D
Finally dear is back from SF!
He bought me so many presents, i'm so happy! I love to receive presents, caz i think they are all surprises that makes me so excited! haha. But sometimes, i don't really like to go around and shop for presents. It's quite troublesome, like.. u have to search for something that the other party will fancy and of course, the budget. Budget is always a constraint. Like, u see something really really nice and u are going to get it for sure, so the next thing u will do is... u'll check the price. And then, if it is "too much to handle", u frown. If the price is just right, u grab it! haha.
Maybe this is not the case for everybody. But for me, it is an usual routine. And, i detest that! I mean, it makes my life so sad and difficult at the same time. haha!
Speaking of presents, i have yet gotten one for my dear friend, Cabrina! Real belated birthday present man.. haha. sorry ger! And, besides that, Christmas is just round the corner. haha, when i go to the town, i can see almost everyone is searching for x'mas presents. Jolly jolly jolly! I don't really feel the festive season this time round. and i don't know why. The lights-up at orchard are normal, nothing fantastic. Wonder what's wrong with Christmas this year round. Probably it's still early! haha! :D
Everyone has a Christmas wish-list, so do i...
MY CHRISTMAS WISH LIST! ( i shall not name all... haha. too many to mention! so i'll name top5!)
1. I want to have a new fragrance.. girls should have a selection of fragrances to suit different moods! :P
2. I still want to get a new pair of sports-shoe !
3. I still want to have my hair colored. haha!
4. I want to spend more time with my dear, my friends and of course, my family!
5. That... all my wishes come true! :D
haha, sometimes it is really pointless to list a wish list, caz i realised i won't be able to have everything come true. But, as much as i know that i won't be getting everything, i enjoy making the list! :D ( so.. don't stop me! )
:: dawn tan :: at 9:53 PM Yippee! exams are finally over.. Finally i can forget about academic stuff for the meantime. Alright, met up with some of the canoeists yesterday in the evening, also to celebrate Gim's and Kianheng's birthday. haha, yaohui and kenny went to buy the cake and it was supposed to be a secret, but Champ and I leaked out the secret. We went suntec to have dinner at pastamania, then gelare to have ice-cream. Well, only 2 greedy mouths had this sinful temptation - Champ and Kianheng. Haha, they shared a Chocolate tempation or something.. so romantic.. haha! ok, just kidding. Well, then we went to esplanade, near the sea where there are places to sit down, and celebrated their birthdays. Took some pictures and chit-chat.. We left at about 11.30pm. Jeremy and I went off first, and the rest went to watch midnight movie at cine. haha.
I was down with flu after the paper yesterday. Some girl sitting beside beside passed the flu bug to me. I know i was falling sick but i never expect to catch it in the exam hall.. irritating!
but now, im feeling better! so can enjoy already! hahar, so friends, if u are bored, can jio me out! hahar! :)
:: dawn tan :: at 10:10 PM i had a great deal of fun!
Yesterday, we were supposed to go mambo @ zouk but the crowd was too many to handle. After much squeezing and pushing, we decided to get out of there and find some place to chill out and party! hahar.
We went to Tumpler @ Goodwood park instead. I can say, that place has a mature crowd, but it is a super good place to chill out with the girls. hahar, alot of ang-mos, if u wear something super sexy, high chance getting picked up and who knows, u may get yourself a sugar-daddy! haha! Anyhow, i had a lychee martini and 3 shots of sex on the beach. I think this is my first time drinking something different from gin tonic and vodka lime.. hahar! they are superb! Lychee martini has a sweet-then-hot taste.. sex on the beach has a cough syrup taste initially, but the after-taste is.. hmm... i dunnoe how to describe, but it is way way better than superb!
Then we hit the dance floor... the space may be small. but the songs .. FANTASTIC! To a point that it is even better than phuture and zouk.. they have bits of mambo.. so we still get to mambo anyway! oh, they have a live band too.. cool man! hahar!
Reached home at about 230am.. my head was kinda hitting around, and my throat felt hot. hahar! So took a bath and zonk out... what can i say, i had a great night! it was even better than great!
Oh! Cabz, HAPPY BIRTHDAY! I LOVE U! *hug and a muack!!*
:: dawn tan :: at 10:39 PM physics was a total disaster. I'm so so prepared to "take-away" this subject for the next semester! *boo booo*
:: dawn tan :: at 4:44 PM dear just called!
hehe, dear just gave me a call to tell me he has reached san francisco safely.. I'm so happy! :D
:: dawn tan :: at 4:17 PM
what a night...
mosquitoes are irritating insects that deprive people of sleep! :X
:: dawn tan :: at 10:39 AM my dear went off to San Francisco already...
[ happy 28th month together, baby! i love u!]
Today's paper - econs - was not very good. Expected this bad omen. But, it's ok. I've tried whatever I can do to complete the paper. Good or bad, doesn't matter. :)
Well, after the paper, i went to dear's place then his parents drove us to the airport, and send him off. He'll be going for a 10 day trip! So cool, can travel... i also want to travel and play! Hmm, i wonder what is dear doing on the plane now.. is he sleeping? eating? reading? or just staring into space? haha. Hmm, he'll be coming back on the 17th, i can't wait for him to come back. So that i can give him a really tight bear hug!
At the airport, as usual, u see the tall pretty slim Singapore Girls around.. I'm always so amazed when i see them. Psst, it was like my dream when i was just a little girl.
"when i was just a little girl, my mother used to ask me, what will i be... will i be pretty, will i be sad... here's what she said to me.. que sara sara... whatever will be, will be... the future's not for us to see... que sara sara...."
Although my mum never really sang this to me, but when i was young, i will always dream of myself being an air stewardess. I guess it's almost every girl's dream! haha. They get to travel on the plane as a profession and visit so many interesting places around the world. It's just so cool! The world out there has a vast knowledge awaiting for us to discover!
When will i get to travel? ....
:: dawn tan :: at 10:44 PM yea! one more down, 3 more to go!
Just came back from lunch at canteen 14. Yummy sweet and sour pork rice! the pork is tender and chewy, but the sauce is hmm.. not very well done! I miss my Mum's sweet and sour pork! :D
It is a Saturday, and i'm stuck at hall to prepare for econs paper on Monday. I feel like a lousy soul. Can't go home and enjoy the comfort and not speaking, the nice home-cooked food. So sad la! But i know it is only temporary, just get through this week and the next and everything will be fine again! When i finish my papers, dear will still be in US. Cannot share my joy with him... but i guess i'll occupy myself with shopping with buddies, exercising (gym, swimming, running), KTV, spend some time at the beach to refresh my mind (anyone wan to run at East Coast park in the morning?) haha, i have so many things i want to do. hmmm, i shall put a list of "I WANT"!
ok, here goes the list!
I WANT to...
1. buy a new pair of running shoes from queenstown shopping centre.
2. buy one or two new tops ( probably tank tops..)
3. Visit the gym and work out!
4. Run at East Coast Park
5. Go shopping with my dear girl-friends!
6. KTV!
7. Buy bdae present for dear!
8. Cut and Color and do Treatment to my hair under $100.. hmm.. can it be done? haha!
Haha, i shall not add more to the list.. Because i know i won't be able to get or do all. But i enjoy the thrill of putting down my WANTS! hee!
ok, i shall get back to my econs...
Cheers! :D
:: dawn tan :: at 1:43 PM
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:: dawn tan :: at 10:24 PM one down.. 4 more to go!
today's math paper was pretty alright. Was able to do the questions but i'm not too sure if the answers are correct after all. Anyway, it is done and over with. Now, 4 more papers to go and it's party time for me and everybody! Can't wait for the exams to be finished! :) good luck people with the studying.
Hmmm, dear will be going off to US for great deal of fun in 6 days time. What should i ask him to buy for me... hmm.. any ideas people? hahaha.
Oh, i'm back at the comfort of my granny's place. Will be having dinner soon. Oh, i miss home-cooked home SO SO MUCH! Canteen's food are getting more boring. Should i start to cook at the hostel? but it is so troublesome, i have to bring my own cooking stuff, and not mentioning buying of the food itself.
Out of the sudden, i feel like having pizza!!! :D
:: dawn tan :: at 5:21 PM it's November!
Time flies. It is already the start of November! gosh, i'll be taking my first paper for my first semester in uni. Hope everything turns out well. In fact, feeling the butterflies in my stomach now! TENSE! I wish everything will go by in a breeze....
Wed, 3 nov - FE1006 Mathematics 1 : completed :)
Sat, 6 nov - FE 1004 Life Sciences : completed :)
Mon, 08 nov - HE 191 Principles of Economics :
Wed, 10 nov - MS 1001 Physics 1 :
Sat, 13 nov - MS 1005 Materials Science :
*crossing my fingers everyday! *
:: dawn tan :: at 8:02 PM
dawn tan pei yi
8 feb 1985
live to smile,
For everyday
is a beautiful day!
reading:
How to walk in high heels
- Camilla Morton
song in da head:
::voice out::