i know the infamous green monster is always hidden somewhere inside me.

there was this day when i heard over the radio about being envy of your friends and how to dissolve this problem.

she talked about ways you can tackle the problem with tact.

somehow, in conclusion, i felt that it leaves an empty space in the puzzle of emotions.

is it such an easy issue to be dealt with?

or, is it truly a sin to be envious of another?

i do not blame others of my circumstance.

we can only blame ourselves for our own positioning.

cause, we are responsible for our own actions.

likewise, the future depends on one's making.

think about it.

without envy, where will motivation appears?

it is science. the push-pull factors.

without a push behind your back, the amount of work needed for the pull will be magnified.

emotions are complex.

they often come together. so much so, it is diffcult to segment them and understand what you are feeling truly.

i would say,

this issue will stay for quite some time.

it will be demanding to ask of me to forget or rather, being ignorant of the events.

probably i will smile and turn away.

but i know, i can't escape from the reality of events.

i know i am talking in circles.

that is because i feel like i am in a maze.

so trapped after multiple attempts of escape.

just too tired to find a solution and embrace a new world.